Thursday, September 27, 2007
Delicious Autumnal Menu
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Just realised
That means I have lost about 1 and a half pounds a month since I shelled out £4000 on my surgery.
Pretty crap when you look at it that way huh...
I am sitting here making myself feel worse not better.
For god sake someone tell me that this time next year I will be a scrawny bint! PLEASE
Way Hey... Another 1.5lb off today...
I am now 17stone 3 and a half pounds - That's 10 and a half pounds lost since banding!! YAYAY
I had a bit of an odd slimmingworld meeting today though.
The Beeeyatch of a slimmingworld consultant, who we shall call.... umm... *PIG*, has been a complete and utter swamp donkey.
As you all know, I had my band fitted when I was attending a slimmingworld class that ran on a Monday. I told the consultant that I had had my band, because I was worried about losing loads of weight. She reassured me that I wouldn't lose loads (she was right hey!) immediately, and that I was totally welcome in the class, she had other people in class before who had had a lap band, and that I was still going to have to follow a healthy eating plan. All true.
Anyhow, as you all know I left slimmingworld in June because I lost the plot diet wise. So when I rejoined at my previous group with *PIG* on a Tuesday, I didn't bother to tell her about my band because
- I am not losing loads of weight and therefore will not be slimmer of the week
- I will not be entering their dumb competitions to win anything
- I will be following the healthy eating plan - well sort of
- I need to get weighed whether I have a band or not
- I had been so reassured by my other consultant that I didn't think I needed to inform her
- and lastly - ITS NONE OF HER DAMN BUSINESS
Well somehow... she know all about it.
I have told 3 people at slimming. 1 of them being the person I went to Belgium with - TB. another being a pupils mother who happened to go to slimmingworld ages ago, but not anymore who I know would not breathe a word. The other one being the girl I saw 2 weeks for the first time in a year who was genuinely excited for me and also told me today of the callous betrayal of confidentiality flouted by not ONE but TWO slimmingworld consultants.
I am in absolutely no doubt that my previous consultant has told my new consultant that I had a lap band fitted. Since I am a rejoin, this information should NEVER have been shared. She should never have put my friend in that position, on the telephone, where she felt torn. *PIG* blatantly asked her whether she knew if I had had an operation or not. Of course my friend would tell me what was said, even though she asked her not to say anything.
What a complete scab hound. If my friend had not known that I had had a lap band and came up and asked me if I had had an operation, I would have been really upset, because I CHOOSE who I tell.
I am really annoyed and I phoned the head office today to ask them about it all. I enjoy going to slimmingworld as you get great tips and stuff, info and all kinds of support (banded or not!) and I like to keep a check on everything. I now feel that anyone in that room might know I have had an operation and I just don't know what to do about it. I feel like if I talk to *PIG* about it then that will drop my friend in it, but if I don't, then my mind will get away with itself and I will be paranoid android thinking that everyone who gets a phone call from her will be asked "Do you know her well... I heard a rumour..." What a scummy thing to do to someone. I feel like a piece of scum now. I feel humiliated and not worthy of going to the class. I feel shat on by someone who I told things to in confidence. So much for their confidentiality policy. Its not worth a fig.
I am so glad my friend told me. I know if she reads this she will be really upset that she said anything, but PLEASE don't be. *PIG* has upset so many people in the past, including me, that maybe she needs to be told. I would have hated not to know, and I am glad you told me about it honey honest! I want to give it to *PIG* both barrels, but I wont because of you. I will just rant my frustration on here. If *PIG* reads this maybe she will have the decency to apologise for the hurt she has caused me.
I am sure that the other consultant who told *PIG* about it has also has some degree of negligence in this, but it should never have been mentioned to another member of the class. For goodness sake!! God, I am sick of these jumped up little Hitlers telling us to "do better" and "lose weight" when they are often the ones that make us feel so crap we want to go and eat 765 donuts. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. They tell us this and that, but when it comes to being decent honest upright members of society they fall very short. HOW DARE SHE????
I am on the phone to TB right now, and told her to ring *PIG* under the pretense of needing a password for the website.. tee hee
Right, TB has just got off the phone from her right now. TB was baiting her so badly, but *PIG* didn't bite or have the guts to ask her anything about it. She kept bringing the conversation round to me, but she just didn't go for it.
We will wait and see if she has the guts to ask me herself the nosy cow.
Monday, September 24, 2007
New! 5 Day Pouch Test Website.
Gross Dinner
It was some kind of strange pasta that I bought from Hungary before I had my band done. It looks like mini clouds in the packet.. little nuggets of pasta, and looks like a load of creamy sick when cooked. I think its more like gnocchi that pasta actually.
With that I had a can of Pork goulash that I bought in Lidl. I guess that if you have to put a picture of a pigs head on it, there has to be some reason. This could have been any type of meat. If you had said it was steak I would have believed you, and if you had said it was chicken, I would have believed you. It could even have been whale blubber to be honest. It was RANK.
*goosebumps running down whole body*
I ate about 2 pieces of 'meat' and a couple of spoons of the pasta blobs. I put the bowl on the floor and the cats finished the rest off. That just goes to prove its basically only fit for animals.
I am really looking forward to tomorrow's weigh in. I hope I have done OK. I have been basically good this week. We have had a couple of takeaways, but as with everything its the quantity isn't it. I am definitely eating less that I was which is good.
I do feel a bit vacant about the whole banding thing at the moment. I don't know whether I should just eat, or go on a diet, or what really. Its kind of like living in limbo land... just waiting for something to happen - good or bad.
I feel like something big is about to happen... I don't know what, but life is just way too boring right now.
We have our American cousins coming to stay next Tuesday for the night. They are staying for a couple of weeks and seeing the sights, and we get to see them on Tuesday which will be cool. We last saw them 4 years ago, so we are really excited about that. They were so good to us showing us about all over San Diego and the desert and stuff. It will be good to be able to re pay the favour.
Anyway, going to go and get an early night now.
