Gutten Abend....?

BLEUGHhhh

Today has worn me out. Yes it has. its nearly midnight and I am still awake and writing this blog.

I feel in dire need of something. I am not actually sure what it is I am in dire need of though. Here are a few things I could be in dire need of:

Running for 30 miles non stop
Streaking naked down the street with wet hair
Eating my body weight in penny sweets
16 litres of Shiraz
Having a screaming contest with myself
Razoring my head
Stabbing myself with pins... piercings? hmmm
Picking 6000 spots - all with great goop in them
Biting something really really hard - like an arm or thigh
Work in a coal mine for 24 hours

I have had THE worst day.

One of those days where you simply cannot do anything except get stressed, and then some.

Its so awful I can't even speak about it, because that will push me over the edge and I will have to go and do one of the above.

On a positive note, tomorrow I am mostly going to be sleeping. I am going to be in a minute and then I am not getting up until I WANT TO. Then at 2pm I am going to pick up our new housekeeper from the city. THANK GOD Then I am going to show her the ropes, and then I am going to go back to bed.

I told DH that I could not be a wife, mother, child educator, career woman and a skivvy. So I hired some help. If DS was at school things might be easier. Not a lot, but I would at least have 6 hours a day when he was not here. So basically somethings got to give, and it was getting close to being my sanity.

I think that Prozac is the best drug in the world. I tried lowering my dose over the last few months. I was down to one tablet a day. So much for that. I am back to 2 pills daily. I haven't noticed the kick yet, but hopefully it will be soon. I need to be SANE.

Its 6 months since banding tomorrow.

I thought I should tell you all that I didn't go for my fill on Saturday as I had planned. It was too much stress. The thought of driving down there again made me feel ill. DH's car has also been resprayed and I would just die if something happened again!

Anyway, I am going to go back soon once I have got my head together.

I am off to bed now.