Feeling pretty damn grim

I have an awful pain around my port... its been slowly getting worse.
When I had my fill on Saturday it was just sore from the injection...
On Sunday it was ok, but I could feel it.
Yesterday it was pretty painful, and I had to come home from work, cancel my lessons and go to bed because it was really horrible but I think it was all exacerbated from lack of food!
Today it been terrible. I have been in agony all day long. I had to work today as I re scheduled all my clients for today seeing as I had to cancel them yesterday, and I could REALLY have done without it.


This evening, it has been less noticeable. Funnily enough, I think its just a case of muscle pain. I know that might sound crazy, but the injection really hurt on Saturday, and I usually suffer a little bit after the fills with feeling a bit sore, and if you couple this fill with the fact that its the time of the month too, and I am bloated and sore anyway, I think that's got a lot to do with it.

I am monitoring the situation, as obviously it could also be an infected port, but its not red, sore to touch or hot or anything like that.

Today I was thankfully back on solids too, which helps no end.

Yesterday I was so weak that I simply had to go to bed. I woke at about 2am, and read for an hour, but couldn't sleep, so I came downstairs and made myself some mushy dinner and watched telly. I felt really bloated afterwards! COOOOOOL

This morning when I got up I was all ready to have breakfast when I though "Nope!" and I have decided to continue on the slimfast plan for a little while longer just to see what the difference is. Now the problem I have is that I will not get an accurate weight reading because of having the curse, which is tragic because tomorrow is 5 months exactly since banding.

I will get weighed tomorrow anyway, because I want to be weighed and stuff whether its accurate or not, because I feel like I haven't really had a regular weight reading for a while and I kind of miss it you know? It was a kind of comfortable rhythm weighing every Monday.

I am going to try and make Wednesday my weekly weigh in now as that then ties up with the date of my surgery better.

So today I started out with a slimfast for breakfast. I then went to town and had my nails done and got DS's hair cut and then came back and did a load of work with him - Maths and language arts and spellings and stuff. He is getting really good at spelling. I cannot believe that I have been able to teach my own son to read, write, add up and all that stuff all from scratch. I feel WELL proud of myself.

Then for lunch I had a slimfast too... so 400 cals so far.

Then I went to work, and when I got home I had Lamb steak with ratatouille and potatoes. It was luscious. I then later on during the course of the evening I had 2 muller lights and some cherries, 5 rice cakes and a crumpet...
So today's calories were

slimfast x 2 = 400
Lamb dinner = 436
cherries = 100
muller x 2 = 190
rice cakes = 300
crumpet = 90

total: 1516

So although its not 1000 like Dr. Dovey recommended, its still a lot less than I usually eat. Also I do feel like there is a lot more restriction. I am VERY full right now. I think actually the crumpet (which I just ate) was not really necessary and I can actually still feel it in my gullet... not a pleasant feeling to be honest.

So tomorrow is another day, and we shall see what it brings. I will be busy again, as I have to work, so I will endeavour to prepare a bit better and maybe take some fruit with me or at least some liquid.

Tonight was really funny, as Travelling Buddy and TB's hubby came around for the show. Its so funny watching it with other people. Also we had a right old laugh about a letter that arrived at their house this morning, and we spent ages concocting a really horrible reply, then a nicer reply and then one that would really annoy - one that was so nice and lovely that they would know it was sarcasm, but .... maybe not be able to really know for sure.

I love writing letters. I think its sad that people don't know how to write well these days. Its rare to get a letter isn't it. There's nothing better than receiving a good letter. A conversation is over instantly, but letters stay with you for as long as you keep them. I love them.